Accepting the Unexpected

Here’s the problem, I always expect too much or expect certain results on possibly anything I do. I realize I shouldn’t but it’s who I am. I over think, a lot, and when I over think those results don’t follow through I am sometimes disappointed either with myself or with the event that had just happened. When I attend informational meetings in something that is of interest to me I may expect too much. There are times when I know I can be uptight about many things, but it’s only because I’m anxious to know what’s going on. It’s definitely not a good trait but I’m working on it.

In a way I have been feeling uninspired lately, I’m not sure why, but when I was writing my last essay I just did not want to write about it, aside from being really sick when I first started researching and writing it. It could be that I didn’t care for half the subject, which can be a major problem. If I don’t show interest then the essay suffers in creativity and especially in writing. I’m not settling with the idea of something being ok when it could be excellent. I think what comes with inspiration is doing the things you love. I was completely immersed in studying the last part of last semester so I wasn’t doing much of anything else. This year I intend to try different things, I want to attend lectures, I want to explore more galleries and eventually, I’m hoping, it’ll help inspire me with an idea for my dissertation. Which, while I’m on the subject, I have an idea of what I want to do, but it could always change. However, I’m hoping when I start attending events I’ll become inspired and not be stuck like I have been. I’m looking forward to going to and trying out new things. All I have to do in between research and writing this semester is look around at what’s going on. 

When something unexpected happens I go with the flow, because, really, what else can you do? Every time something like that happens I embrace it and I’ll grow from those experiences. Obviously unexpected events are random and that’s what makes it even more fun!